“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27
If I am physically feeling sick or in pain, I am not in a good place with handling my emotions. The same goes for when someone or something, I rely on is unavailable or doesn’t work, I lose my mind. My perspective becomes skewed and my day is shot. This is a sad way to live. When you are in the thick of it, it looks like there is no end.
During a few days, I pulled my back lifting my dog, our dryer went out (after the warranty expired), I caught a real mother of a cold where I lost my voice and coughed straight through the night and I noticed there was more month than money. The world was also reeling from a couple of terrorist tragedies. I was cranky and anxious. As I am trying to work through the week feeling defeated, I noticed it is time to get ready for Girl Scout cookie time. No one in the troop wants to take this on. It is time consuming, a huge responsibility, and a lot of energy is needed to make it through this 6 week period. I just didn’t want to do it.
I was feeling unmotivated to do anything. Everything that came my way felt like an emergency and had to be completed right then and there. I was being grumpy to people, taking things they said the wrong way. I was reading into everything as an insult. Then my friend called me out on it.
This friend and I lead that Girl Scout Troop. She sent me a quick email, saying she knows I am overwhelmed right now and offered to handle some of my duties within the troop amongst the other things she did. The problem with emails or social media is you cannot understand what someone’s tone is at the moment they write it. I took it wrong and sent her a lengthy email. I explained why I was not feeling so motivated and would still complete my responsibilities. It came off very harsh and lack of a better word, snotty. She emailed me and said, we need to talk. She called me and said, “I was only trying to help and was not scolding you. Everyone, right now is feeling the weight of the season and stress. Let’s just get through this time and gain some perspective and things will get better.” I felt awful about what I did and realized this way of handling life needs to stop.
Coming to the Lord first, through prayer and taking a step back to reflect on what is going on, will help me relax and figure out what is important to give my energy to. This comes with practice. It is not worth my health or my sanity to keep running around and trying to accomplish everything. Saying “no” is sometimes a gift within itself.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for the life you have given me. I realize that I am so fortunate and that you will provide everything I need in my life. Help me to know when to say “yes” and “no” to things. I pray that “busy” not be the way I describe my life, but blessed and thankful. In Jesus’ Name. AMEN!”