But overhearing what they said, Jesus said to the ruler of the synagogue, ‘Don’t fear, only believe’” Mark 5:36

 

I find when my bad circumstances outshine my blessings, I want to question why things are going wrong. Why am I having to endure this trial? Why are people against me? I try to understand why and all it does is make me doubt. Exactly, what the enemy wants me to do. This takes any faith I may have mustered and erases it. I get angry and more confused.

I was at a church home gathering a few weeks ago. I was having a lot to deal with much of which, I could not control. The speaker was a pastor named Dr. Dennis Sempebwa. He spoke on this very thing. He said that having faith is having full submission to trusting in God while trying to understand your circumstances makes you question everything. I think I have heard that a million times, but I finally got it! I realized, I want to control everything and not trust. Even Jesus said in John 16:33,I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” I am going to experience many things I do not want to, but God is in control. I have to put my life in the hands of God. He created me for His purpose.

I can make a choice: either to be bothered by every injustice in my life (even in the world) or look past to what is greater. Joyce Meyer wrote in a devotion, “There is nothing we need that God cannot provide.” The key word is “need” not “want”. Also for my faith to grow, I need to contend for it. If I need healing and it doesn’t happen miraculously, I have to keep praying for it and wait on God. I also have to live my life as the blessing it is, instead of waiting for things to be perfect. I was having a few bad days where Vertigo was my constant companion. I began to have bad thoughts about my health and feeling sorry for myself. I had to go grocery shopping and prayed for the Lord to help me to feel better. I felt The Holy Spirit say, “Change your thoughts, renew your mind to believe.” A holy version of “fake it till you make it.” It worked, I made it through the shopping trip and had a pleasant day.

Lesson learned: renew your mind to be faithful not to always get it.

Prayer:

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray for protection over my mind and its thoughts. I pray that your word be written on my heart. I ask that your thoughts be my thoughts. Whenever negative or anxious thoughts enter into my head, I cast them out immediately in Jesus’ Name. Let your glory be known. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”