“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13
I could not kill bugs in the house when I was growing up. I would see a spider and cry. I would scream and ask my dad to get it for me. This carried on for many years. When I was 19 years old, we moved from Los Angeles to Orange County. My parents still commuted from the new house to their jobs in L.A. while I was going to college in Orange County. I was at the new house primarily by myself. Most college students would be so happy to be alone but all I could think about was what if something went wrong and I had to take care of it.
I lived for 19 years under the flight pattern of LAX. So, noise was always present. This new city was smaller than L.A. There was a lot of undeveloped land and it was very quiet. Instead of 747s landing, I would hear coyotes howling in the middle of the night. The silence was deafening, I could not sleep for the first week. I got used to the peace and quiet, but not the insects. Due to the fact there were open fields around our community, there were lots of insects especially spiders and crickets and frogs. Yes, frogs!
Any kind of bug that jumps and crunches when you step on them makes me cringe. I was hoping the frogs would eat all of the crickets, but those crickets managed to find their way into the house. I would pray for God to give me courage and the strength to take care of the house when pests would come into it. I would be paralyzed with fear. I guess, I believed the insect would jump up and attach itself to my face and eat me. (Don’t you love irrational fears?) But I did not want to go to sleep with the thought of anything jumping or crawling around the house. I could not bring myself to step on one, so I got resourceful. I would either sweep them out the front door or vacuumed them. I only had one frog manage to get itself into the garage. I swept it out the door after it peed all over my shoes and the ground in the garage. But after a while, my fear went away and I was able to get insects to crawl on a paper towel and drop it back outside, so it wouldn’t die.
In dealing with anxiety, my mind will take things that aren’t so bad and make them catastrophic. So many times, I would worry about something that ended up being nothing. If I would seek Him first and pray, then I got past the problem. I know it is only because of the strength God gave me, not of my own abilities. God gave me the right thoughts, words or actions that helped to arrive at the solution or just by His grace, I overcame the situation. I know when I try to figure everything out on my own, I feel defeated. It doesn’t matter if you are dealing with pests from entering your home or a life altering decision, God will give you that strength you need. If it was meant for me, God will get me through it victoriously. If it isn’t in His will, the door will close.
Lesson Learned: God will always give us strength when we let Him.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I pray for your strength in my times of weakness. I thank you for your wisdom in times of confusion. Calm my mind and remind me you overcame. Thank you for your peace and wisdom. In Jesus Name, AMEN!”