“For am I now trying to win the favor of people, or God? Or am I striving to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a slave of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
Today, I was emailing some of my friends about whether I should keep or return a purse. I was in the mall with my daughter looking for a purse because all kinds hurt my back. I found a fanny pack. Yes, a fanny pack. I thought, “oh dear God, has it come to this?” I already stopped wearing any shoes with a heel. I also own a pair of shoes that look like a glove for your feet, with the socks to match. My daughter liked the bag. I actually liked it. It is a posh name brand too. I thought maybe that is how I could get away with having a fanny pack by it being a name brand. I looked on-line at the designer’s website and they called it a “belt bag”. Even they don’t want to associate it with the old term. Everyone I asked in the email said they liked it. One of the friends, who I have known since high school liked it a lot. She could wear a sack that potatoes came in and still look chic. I told her that her opinion mattered a lot because she is so fashion forward. She wrote back saying that I have always had good taste and that I really didn’t need her opinion at all. I realized in that moment how I always ask for people’s opinions because I don’t trust my judgment. Another symptom of fearing to fail.