“Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.”  Proverbs 28:13

 

I am not one to hide my emotions.  It is usually written on my face.  Meanwhile, if you ask me “how are you?”  I respond with, “I’m fine, thank you.”  Understandably, you don’t want to tell the cashier at Target that you are anxious beyond belief or you are scared about the security of your husband’s job.   We feel we shouldn’t burden others with our problems.

 

But when we don’t seek help, it costs us.  Our physical and emotional health.  Sometimes our relationships with others.

 

I was reading an email ad from a very popular craft store.  There was a sale on plastic bins for organizing.  Their ad title was “Camouflage Clutter!”  The minimalist in me freaked out.  I thought, there is still clutter inside those bins, it just doesn’t look as bad.  You are just taking your problem and hiding it.

 

Many times, I don’t want to face my problems.  In dealing with crowds, I would leave an event early.  In order to fly on an airplane, I would take something to relax me.  Instead of dealing with a difficult person, I would avoid them entirely.  I would buy a bigger clothing size instead of taking care of myself.  Sometimes, I will not even try something because I was so afraid of failing.  Not a good way to live.

 

God wants us to be prosperous and well.  He wants us to rely on Him in life’s difficult situations, instead of on our own strength.  It was difficult, but I had to face my problems and take steps to overcome them, instead of succumbing to them.  First step was finding a good therapist.  I found not one, but two!  I also decided to try meditation.  I was so reluctant for years because I was fearful of worshipping something else other than God.  But I found a meditation app (called Headspace) that wasn’t like that and it has helped me greatly.  And lastly, I became more gentle with myself and my thoughts.  

 

At some point, I decided that I want to feel better in my daily living.  God equipped me when I was ready.  Everyone is difficult in their healing.  My hope is that one day soon, we all discover that way.

 

Lesson Learned: Don’t cover up problems, expose them for their lies and seek healing.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I am so thankful that you know me better than anyone.  Show me your ways Lord.  Heal my wounds and equip me with the strength I need to fix these areas.  Give me patience for the time it may take.  Guard my mind, heart and soul and restore every area in my life that needs it.  Help me to forgive and establish boundaries.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”