“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than ourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests, but also to the interests of others.” Philippians 2:3-4
Our relationship with Jesus is a personal one. Jesus pursues us deeply. He is always trying to meet us daily. When we actually focus, we can see it and it fills all the emptiness in our lives. However, when we hear from the Lord, it may not be a specific message for us, but for others.
There are times when I pursue God and hope to hear a specific word for my life. I have been to conferences at different churches, where there are evangelists and pastors speaking and teaching. There was one specific gathering where there was a pastor blessed with a prophetic and discerning gift.
In the past, I have been to two of his gatherings. At both of them, he called me up and spoke these amazing words over me. So, in anticipation and expectation, I was hoping for it to happen again.
Before the sermon began, we had a time of worship. One of my friends came over and stood next to me. I felt the Lord gave me a vision for her. I saw an old vase cracking and break a part. Then, she came out of the vase, ever so beautiful (and she already is a beautiful woman). The Holy Spirit continued to give me words of encouragement for her life. I told her and hoped they would give her strength.
The service begun. The pastor began to speak encouragement and prophesy over some of the people there at the service. Lives were being changed as the Holy Spirit moved. The service ended without him saying anything specific over me. I was jealous, upset and angry. Not something you hope to feel after witnessing the power of the Holy Spirit.
As the days continued, I felt more depressed. I knew it was because I was still upset, there wasn’t a word for me. There was a young woman, at this same meeting, where the pastor spoke over her life that matched exactly what I would have wanted to hear of my life. But I knew I need to ask for forgiveness, because these depressed feelings were not of the Lord.
I began to pray and asked the Lord to forgive me and take any feelings of jealousy. I heard the Lord say, “It doesn’t have to always be about you at these things. There was a whole room of people who didn’t get a specific word from this pastor. You were there for your friend, to give her that word of encouragement.”
As much as you attend church or gatherings to hear specific words from the Lord, what you hear may be for someone else. It means that God trusted to use you for advancing his Kingdom and to bring people comfort. We shall never take that for granted but still remain in expectation for that good word.
Lesson Learned: God is everywhere, we just need that heart of expectation and ears to hear it for whoever it may.
“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for being jealous of others when they receive blessings from you. Refine my heart and mind to align with your heart and mind. If there is a good word for someone, give us the courage to share it. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”