“The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure. So, my dear friends, flee from the worship of idols.” 1 Corinthians 10:13-14
I am diagnosing myself with an addictive personality. I seem to find something new and just obsess it full throttle. I remember this started with the 1990’s boy band, New Kids on the Block (NKOTB). I still giggle thinking I would marry one of the boys in the band. I looked and bought any magazine they were on. I listened to their tapes (yes, those plastic things that had ribbon inside that ended up wearing out when you listen to them for hours a day, every day). I listened to the rumors from friends and other fans. I bought buttons with their faces on them to wear. I even, ripped out a picture of Joey McIntyre (my future husband) from a magazine in a store. Yes, I stole it. Statute of limitations are over, right? I plastered their pictures on my bedroom wall. I was mad my parents didn’t let me go to a concert. Any parent should drop their child off and let their kid go alone to The Forum and see them perform, thinking in my infinite 13 year old wisdom. My father was so mad. He said, “This is hero worship! This is wrong!” I did not get it. One day, my father was telling a person how much I loved NKOTB. This person said, “oh she will get over it and move on.” For some reason, when I heard him say that, I stopped. I decided, I don’t want to like them anymore. Maybe, their popularity was dwindling and it was just the right timing. But just when my parents thought, we will see the wallpaper in their daughter’s room again, my dad took me to my first hockey game…
The Los Angeles Kings…I love me some hockey. I became more obsessed over this one. Unfortunately, my father loved hockey too, so we bonded. We bought hockey cards, clothing, posters, game tickets. I made lots of friends and brought friends to love this team. I may be responsible for some people getting married due to hockey. Other friends would say, you are so obsessed! I wrote to a pen pal in Finland about these players all the time, She wrote me once and said, “it is okay to like something, but I think you have a serious problem.” As years passed, I could stalk, I mean just happen to locate, where they lived and hang out where they were. After awhile, I began to notice, these men were far from perfect, they were cute but not perfect. I saw married men with children, stepping out with other women. Most drinking into oblivion. I knew, I don’t want to be around this. I moved with my family to another city and then the obsession started to deflate. Then God blessed me with a wonderful man, who does not care about hockey. As much as I wished he liked it, God knew, it would be bad if he did.
Maybe you are thinking, I am not this bad. Maybe not, but we all have something that takes our attention away from full surrender and devotion to God. I know God gives us desires to like different things. But He does not want it to take place on how He needs to be the center of our lives. Our families, our careers, our hobbies, our health, our cell phones, social media are some examples that can become obsessions or even hero worship. Ask God to reveal in your heart, what needs to be removed to have Him be the center of your life. Just like asking for more patience, this is a prayer He answers quickly!
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank you that love me so much. Forgive me for not putting you first. I ask that you remove the things in my life that have become idols. Fill those voids with your love and promises. Let me seek you first in all I do. Help me use my energy for better things. I want to have fun and enjoy things, but give me a healthy balance to manage these things. Show and provide me ways to receive support to deal with these obsessions. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!