“Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord.” James 5:14
I started volunteering at my church during the week by cleaning their Children Ministry rooms. As I spent my time over the next few months, I got to know some of the staff that would be there on my day to come in. We would talk about anything and laugh about everything. I looked forward to seeing these wonderful people. There was a young woman, who had just became a new mother to a precious girl, that was their bookkeeper. As we got to know each other, I found out about her on going health struggles.
One day, I felt this prompting from the Lord to openly pray for her healing. It seemed easier to want to do it because, she is a Christian, but I was still scared to. Every time I walked past her office, I kept feeling the nudge to go. I would try to find something else to clean and ignore the feeling and just pray on my own. But the feeling became overwhelming. I started to shake and I felt this heat coming out from the top of my head. I dropped what I was doing and walked over to her office. She was walked out of her office and saw me. I asked her, “May I pray for you because I feel like God wants to heal you right now.” She looked stunned and said, “give me a moment.” I told her I would be in the room by her office. She came back and I started to cry. I was so overcome with emotions. She started to cry because I was crying. I collected myself and told her, “God loves you so much and He wants to heal you.” I prayed my heart out, I prayed for every organ that was causing her troubles and commanded them to heal and restore. I was praying my butt off (I am allowed to say that?). Afterward, I was waiting for that Hallelujah moment. I was waiting of her to proclaim she was healed. I look at her and she is still and quiet. I asked her, “How do you feel?” She says honestly, “Still in pain.” My emotions deflated, like a balloon you blow up and let go and it goes sailing around the room. I wanted to crawl into a hole. I wanted to lock myself into a closet. I was embarrassed and mad. What happened?
That Sunday after service, I went up for prayer. One of the pastors was available for prayer. I don’t know why I even wanted prayer, but I brought up what happened with the bookkeeper and expressed my exasperation. He said to me, “Do not take on the burden for who God heals.” It was such a short sentence but so profound. I immediately felt the burden leave me. I felt free. He next said, “You heard the Lord and you were obedient. That is what mattered. God heard your prayers. Keep praying always and right now you can pray for me.” He asked me to pray for him and I did.
I saw the bookkeeper the following week on my cleaning day. I asked her how she was and she told me she went to the hospital a couple days ago. I didn’t know what to say. I probably turned red and green at the same time. She said, “As I laid there in pain, beginning to worry about this latest episode. God reminded me of your prayer. I began to think of what you prayed and it helped me get through the rest of the hospital stay. You brought me comfort. Thank you.” I told her I would continue to pray for her healing.
Whenever we are obedient, God reveals something for us to learn. I wish we can all be healed miraculously, but most times it is a process. I read this from Pastor Bill Johnson”s Q&A on “Is it always God’s will to heal someone”.
“If someone isn’t healed, realize the problem isn’t God, and seek Him for direction as well as personal breakthrough (greater anointing for consistency in healing). Also, don’t take it personal. There are other factors involved besides great faith. That is only one element in the equation. Just learn to do your best to be faithful to His gospel, and honor Him for the results. It’s also not wise to blame the person who is sick. There’s a difference between a miracle and healing. Miracles happen in an instant and healing happens over time. It is important to recognize the progress of what God is doing in a person’s body and give thanks, because healing increases in an atmosphere of thankfulness.”
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for sending your son Jesus to die on the cross, to save us from our sins and heal us from our wounds. Holy Spirit please give me discernment and wisdom to pray for people’s healing. Help me to not be discouraged when it takes a long time or if they are never healed. Protect me when I pray for the sick. Reveal the victories in the journey of healing. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”