“For am I now trying to win the favor of people, or God? Or am I striving to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a slave of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
Today, I was emailing some of my friends about whether I should keep or return a purse. I was in the mall with my daughter looking for a purse because all kinds hurt my back. I found a fanny pack. Yes, a fanny pack. I thought, “oh dear God, has it come to this?” I already stopped wearing any shoes with a heel. I also own a pair of shoes that look like a glove for your feet, with the socks to match. My daughter liked the bag. I actually liked it. It is a posh name brand too. I thought maybe that is how I could get away with having a fanny pack by it being a name brand. I looked on-line at the designer’s website and they called it a “belt bag”. Even they don’t want to associate it with the old term. Everyone I asked in the email said they liked it. One of the friends, who I have known since high school liked it a lot. She could wear a sack that potatoes came in and still look chic. I told her that her opinion mattered a lot because she is so fashion forward. She wrote back saying that I have always had good taste and that I really didn’t need her opinion at all. I realized in that moment how I always ask for people’s opinions because I don’t trust my judgment. Another symptom of fearing to fail.
I wish there was an instruction manual for everything in life because I don’t want to waste the time in making a mistake or failing altogether. I get so nervous in making choices, I would rather have someone else decide or forgo the decision because I don’t want to disappoint. I had a friend tell me to stop asking everyone for their opinion because it will make me change your mind so many times and add more stress. She said to pray about it and wait on the Lord and if I end up making the wrong decision, that I could adjust.
I actually have the best instruction manual at my disposal, The Bible. The books of Proverbs, Psalms, and James have enough written wisdom to last me a lifetime. I know with having anxiety, every decision seems so important. But making every decision be that important is unrealistic. My approval needs to be from the Lord, not from friends, family or strangers. Who am I trying to impress and why? There is an amazing quote from financial expert, Dave Ramsey, “We buy things we don’t need with money we don’t have to impress people we don’t like.” This is great advice for making purchases, but this can be spoken for a lot of decisions in life. Do I have to volunteer for every activity at my child’s school or at church? Do I need to work more than 40 hours a week, to then have no time for my family or my health? Do I need to look or be a certain weight to be noticed? These questions beg a “no” answer. The real question is, in the major decision that I make in my life does it reflect God?” I believe God doesn’t care what purse I buy, as long as if I am being a good steward of the money I use to spend on it and is it for me or to impress others.
Lesson Learned: Seek approval from God and minimize decision fatigue.
“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for seeking approval from others. Holy Spirit guide me in making the best decisions for my life. Help me to see what is worthy of my thoughts and what is not important. I pray that the desire to be perfect is to be gone now! I ask for a clear mind and thought process in all I do. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”