I am still not a “know it all”

Many plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21

As much as I am thankful for modern medicine, I like to explore alternative options. I do not like prescription pain medications. One over the counter pill is about all I can handle. I end up with bad side effects. My husband believes it is because I read the side effect information on the drug. Whatever the case may be, I would rather slather myself in stinky essential oils, soak in a detox bath or take some herb before taking a prescribed drug.

I haven’t even hit the age of 40 yet, but I feel like my body is already starting to fall apart. The last three weeks I have had a bad back and rib pain. I soaked daily in Epsom Salt baths, got a massage, had chiropractic care, put on the essential oils and applied ice and heat. But nothing relieved the pain or spasms. I thought I had kidney stones due to the intensity of the pain. I went to the doctor on a weekend asking for something to relieve the pain. They prescribed an anti-inflammatory and a muscle relaxer and gave me a pain shot that felt worst than a tetanus shot. The nurse laid me down on the table afterward because I was pale and shaking. I took the muscle relaxer that night. I opened my eyes and realized I slept through the night! But when I got out of bed, I fell back on the bed because I started having another spasm.

I went through this another week with pain whenever I slept or reached towards something. My husband asked if I took the anti-inflammatory. The guilt was all over my face. I think he was tired of the whining but he said just try it. I took the pill and went to sleep. I woke up pain-free. I had no pain through the rest of the day. I didn’t want to tell my husband he was right but when he saw me doing laundry and vacuuming, he knew I was better. I only took the pill one more night. While I still believe in alternative medicine, I know that doctors and medication still have a place in my life. Relief…

How many times does God bring you to a situation where the right way to go is not what you want or imagined it? Sometimes I believe I know the answers and don’t want to try something else. Other times, I see how another person’s situation worked out and I want the same results. I want for God to use me to advance His Kingdom, but I want to pick and chose where I put my time and effort. Let’s be real here. Sometimes you see people, who you know do bad things, yet God blesses them beyond measure. The answer is we do not need to know everything! The best part is we do not have to know everything. Trusting in the Lord is a continual process for me. I will continue to reflect and pray before jumping to conclusions!

Lesson Learned: I don’t need to know it all, just trust God has the best plan.


Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for not trusting you and complaining all of the time. Help me to have a thankful heart. Fix my eyes on you, Lord. Remind me during uncertain or in times of healing from physical or emotional pain that you are in control. In Jesus’ Name. AMEN!”

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