“Now Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1
My teeth clenching has been bad again. I am not sure if it was this U.S. election or the holidays were coming, but something was stirring up a lot of angst and frustration. I was spent physically and emotionally.
Our daughter had her annual well check exam. I was sitting in the waiting room. All of a sudden, I felt this overwhelming peace come over me. I heard , “I do not have to do this anymore”. It had to do with anxiety and as a result my teeth grinding would cease. As soon as I thanked the Lord for this word, I was hit with an episode of Vertigo. I figured it must have been a strong word from the Lord and the enemy was angry that I believed it. My husband was there and thankfully calmed me down before I panicked. Despite feeling nauseous and woozy most of the day, I got through it.
The next day, my friends’ church was having a healing night at their church. I decided to go, because who doesn’t want to God to heal them of their physical and emotional ailments?
After the pastor gave his sermon, he had people come up to be prayed over for their needs.
I told him what I needed prayer for: healing from anxiety and negativity that the teeth clenching that has caused me as well as the pain, dental work and Vertigo. Pastor Malcolm, prayed over my Autonomic Nervous System and commanded in the name of Jesus, “you don’t need to do this anymore!” I am sure he prayed more, but honestly I started to ugly cry and couldn’t hear a thing. My faith became renewed and I knew God was in that moment.
I was so convinced that I was healed that I didn’t wear my night guard that night. The next morning, I woke up in a lot of pain and could barely move my jaw. I made an appointment with a person that does massage and muscle work. He is a Christian and I told them about my experience, but how it didn’t happen like I wanted. He said, “I know you wanted this healing immediately, because you have suffered for such a long time, but that doesn’t mean it won’t happen. Your faith needs to step in until the promise is fulfilled.”
Wow. I thanked him for the encouragement. I wore my night guard and woke up the next day without pain. This is the hard part, you hear from God and confirmations from others that God has healed me of certain needs, but it isn’t happening immediately. I wrote down “I don’t have to do it anymore” on Post-its and placed them in places I know I will see them. Every time I read it, I will thank the Lord for that promise until it is fulfilled. In this process of healing, my faith will become stronger.
Lesson Learned: When God gives you a word, it is a promise that He will fulfill in His way and timing, not my own.
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for your beautiful promises. Forgive me for impatience and give me strength through the faith journey you brought for me. I thank you for being Jehovah Rapha-The Lord that heals. I will continue to serve you and be in expectation. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”