Meditating on What The Lord has Already Done

Blog Post #91 Meditating on What the Lord Has Already Done

“Let your roots grow down into Him. And let your lives be built on Him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught. And you will overflow with thankfulness.” Colossians 2:7

There are many times the Lord has carried me through tough situations and brought me to the other side of it. In the throws of life’s battles, it is difficult to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I forget all the good He has done in my life. It seems that I have a “what have you done for me lately” attitude towards God.

My friend shared with us, some of the troubles she and her family have been dealing with in the last year. I had no idea this was happening. It was horrible and she is so anxious and stressed that she can barely move some days or want to get out of bed. She is a lovely woman who give a lot of herself to others but she is suffering in this trial.

We all wanted to encourage and pray over her. One friend looked at me and said,
“I believe the Lord, wants you to say something.”

“Uhhhh, get back to me,” was my nervous reply.

I began to ask the Holy Spirit, to please give me a word for this dear friend of mine. Thankfully within a couple of minutes, I had a word from the Lord, for her.

I told her,
“The Lord wants you to remember all times He brought you through the difficult and traumatic events. He wants you to remember these things, to comfort you while you go through this trial and that He will take care of you and your family.”

In the midst of hard times, I forget He has already conquered the world. Instead, I try to do things on my strength, not letting God do it for me. It is a burden hard to bare.

Sometimes when people have asked me for encouragement and comfort, I end up hearing a word from the Lord for them, it applies to me as well.  How efficient is the Lord?

Lesson Learned: Remember all He has done, especially in the difficult times.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for all of the times you have carried me and brought me through to the other side. Help us remember all you have done. Protect us during these difficult times and give us wisdom. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Recruitment Status

“Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.” Matthew 28:19

I am not sure if I will ever hear God say precisely, “Dear child your purpose in life is…”. My patience gets weary because I want to know because I am not getting any younger. Maybe I have heard it, but ignore it because it doesn’t sound good to me.
Yet, I know something is out there for me to fulfill.

My pastor gave a great sermon (as he always does) last Sunday regarding how God is recruiting for His children to work here on Earth to further His Kingdom. We all play a part. Some people’s talents create life changing books, movies, music. Others are mentors or teachers that will give meaning to people’s lives. And some will live a life of service and help others have a better life. So what will I do?

I pray every once in a while about this subject. What should I be doing? But I realized whatever stage I am in my life, something can be done for the advancement of His Kingdom. As I reflect in the stage I am in my life, motherhood, I know I should be focusing a lot of my time and effort on my child.

In my life, I suffered through some things. A lot of fear and anxiety, abuse of many kinds and torment. When I was single, I remember a person at a church, praying for me and saying something about a “generational curse”. It was the first time I heard that term, but I understood it right away. Something happened somewhere in the generations of my family that carried through to me. I started to pray for my future child that this would not carry over to them and it would stop with me.

That story popped into my mind when I was thinking about my purpose in life. I knew that I would strive for my daughter to not ever suffer through what I did and generations before me. We hear about how genetics play a role in our health (physical and psychological issues) too. My husband made a conscious choice in his early 20s that he would not take after his biological father as he was an alcoholic. To this day, he has not had one sip of alcohol. (Thankfully, that was something I wanted in a husband, someone who did not drink.). He knew how it destroyed that man’s life and he did not want that carried over into his. It doesn’t have to be “like father, like son” when it comes to the bad things. Behavior can trump bad genetics.

If my only purpose in life is for my daughter to have a better life, than that is fine. Who wouldn’t want to be responsible for molding a child into an upstanding citizen. However, I do hope there is more!

Lesson Learned: No matter what your purpose may be, always look to advance His Kingdom.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for trusting me to advance your Kingdom. Equip me and shape me into what you want for me to achieve. Help me not get caught up in the world’s view of success. If there are any generational curses in my family, I bind and rebuke them now, in the name of Jesus. Restore those areas in my life. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Sharing the Same Thinking

“Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love.”  Ephesians 4:2

 

There was a nice Facebook post that my friend shared about flooding the Internet with Art instead of political posts.  People are getting so sick of over-shared opinions.  As it is always dangerous to go on social media and talk about politics (or anything controversial), right now  Social Media seems like a war zone.  It seems however, no one can be civil.  No one can share an opinion without it being shoved down one’s throats or being told they are wrong.  I think my husband was right in never getting a Facebook or any Social Media profile.

 

The same goes for me being a (wanna-be) Minimalist.  When I began this journey to live a more simple life and without a lot of unneeded stuff,  I was on a rampage to clear out the clutter.  Yet, my husband and daughter have no problem with having stuff.  My parents are the same way. They love new gadgets.  They also love buying things for my daughter.  Of course Grandparents are known for buying too much for their grandkids.  However, my daughter was starting to expect this from them.  

 

I was telling (more like complaining to) a friend about all the stuff grandparents give their grandkids and how I wish there was a better way.  I have suggested experiences and lessons for sports/art instead of toys.  But those requests seem to fall on deaf ears.  Then my dear friend said something that was heart-wrenching.  She went on to tell me, how she was feeling the same way.  Her mom would send her kids random things-knicknacks, stuff that was cute but not of any real use.  But then her mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and those gifts stopped.  She said how she would rather deal with the clutter, than know her mother can’t remember her own  grandkids.   

 

In that moment, I realized while I can passionate about something, but I can’t expect everyone to share the same opinion as me.  Sometimes displayed passion can make the subject more intriguing and change someone’s mind about it.   I believe in being a living testimony.  People need to see how one has changed for the better and to share it with others.  But if someone doesn’t agree, I can’t tell them they are wrong.   I have to keep living by example.

 

Lesson Learned:  Love and pray for people always even if they don’t believe what you believe.  Love changes, not shame.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for pointing out the spec in one’s eye when I have a log in my own.  Give me patience and compassion for people.  While this world will always have disagreements with one another, let God’s justice prevail and goodness and love seep through.

Anxiety is like a Bad Boyfriend

“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me great joy.”  Psalm 94:19

 

Recently, I made a decision in my life that was difficult.  I decided to break up a relationship that I was in for a very long time.  I broke up with anxiety because anxiety is like a bad boyfriend.

 

One morning, soon after waking up, I began to think over the things I needed to do for the day.  It was going to be a busy one.  Usually when it is busy, I begin to think up different scenarios and how I would plan for them.   It is exhausting and something that I know serves no good purpose.  As I was mulling over my thoughts, I said out loud, “I’m done with you anxiety, I’m breaking up with you because you are like a bad boyfriend.”  (I am so glad I was alone when I said that!)

 

Anxiety is like a bad boyfriend because:

  • it makes you feel horrible about yourself
  • it makes you afraid to do things-large or small
  • when you try to take a step of bravery-it makes you doubt yourself and brings you back to that dark place
  • Even though you feel bad, anxiety is somehow comfortable and you want to feel like something you know

 

For the longest time, I didn’t know any other way to cope with difficulties than to be anxious and worry.  So, through a lot of prayer, being prayed for, meditation, words of knowledge and different therapies-God has shown me, I don’t need to waste one more day being anxious because I have already lived that way for years and it has not given me any joy.

 

Days will come that are more stressful and harrowing than others.  But I know it is possible to respond to these situations without harming my body (by way of panic attacks or muscle spasms-soreness) or having bad thoughts that bring me no help.

 

People watch how self-proclaiming Christians act and talk.  I remember a coworker, who wanted to become an esthetician had asked me if she could practice by giving me a facial.  I gladly excepted.  She was a non-practicing Catholic siding more with the New Age philosophies.  We were talking and I was starting to get anxious about a situation.  She said, “I thought you were a Christian?  Aren’t you supposed to have faith and trust in Jesus?   You certainly don’t sound or act like one.”  OUCH…I hate to admit it, especially in her non-loving way, but she was right. I was not being a good example of being a follower of Jesus.  That was in 2003…better late than never.

 

My hope is that someday, anyone who has suffered from anxiety, will break up with it.  However you get there, just get there.  I do recommend Jesus though.

 

Lesson Learned:  I’m leaving room in my life for joy and hope.  There is no place for anxiety anymore.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for showing me how anxiety is a lie from the pit of hell.  I ask for protection from fear over my thoughts and my soul.  Renew my mind and give me strength to endure any trial.  Remind me, Father God how you have carried me through trials already in my life and you make good on all of your promises.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”