“Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious. If there is any excellence and if there is anything that is worthy of praise,, think about these things.” Philippians 4:8
Admission time…I have anger issues and I am not proud of it. I use bad words. Flip my lid. Yell and scream at my husband, our child and strangers. I leave passive aggressive notes for my neighbors. This is a very dangerous road to be on.
I arrived at church with a knot in my stomach. The past 2 weeks haven’t been my best physically. I threw out my back, had a migraine for 3 days and now my stomach burned. And to top it all off, the weather was 100+ degrees for one of those entire weeks. Plus, I was angry at everything. It didn’t matter the reason, large or small, I was angry.
As I got out of the car, I saw my friend. She is a mighty prayer warrior. I consider her my spiritual mother due to her strength and spiritual wisdom. I asked for prayer. She prayed and tears streamed down my face and I began to tremble from all the anger that I had been holding on to from the past, let alone the past two weeks.
My friend knows I am a minimalist at heart. She told me it is time to do some decluttering of my mind. My friends said remove the thoughts that are working against you, not for you. Think of the way Jesus sees you, more eternal, less earthly thoughts. The day changed from there. I enjoyed the church service, my stomach stopped hurting and it was a day of rest from those thoughts.
Today I read the following quote in a Bible devotional, “Whatever you believe on the inside will manifest on the outside.” Most times, anger, anxiety, fear, depression manifests in us physically. My back, my head and my stomach were all being attacked because I was allowing anger’s energy to control me.
The world today thrives on anger. People are short fused and it reflects in society. My hope for the near future is that I can use anger in a useful way. If I see injustice, I try to come up with a possible solution. But most importantly, I don’t let the angry thoughts consume me and manifest and to also pray and lean on the Lord.
Lesson Learned: Think of what is true and good and the mind will be renewed.
“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for letting my thoughts over take my mind. Forgive me for dwelling on the past and relying on my own strength. Remind me when I begin to give in to anger. Give me a renewed mind, like the mind of Christ. Change my focus on what is eternal. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”