“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3
Worrying is not of God. Yet, worrying is my constant companion. Somehow, it brings me comfort. I believe that if I worry, bad situations will not catch me off guard and I am prepared in some way.
My only child, my daughter, recently went on her 5th grade Science Camp Trip. I worried about this trip since she was in Kindergarten, approximately 5 years of worrying. The worrying was not a daily occurrence. But some worrisome thoughts popped into my head every so often.
Last year, when my daughter was in 4th grade, the parents began to talk about fundraising for the Science Camp. I began to collect information about the camp, with my thousands of questions to the teachers. Even with the information, I was negative about the camp. I was subconsciously sabotaging any desire my daughter had of going to the camp. My husband, who knows me quite well, said, “your worry is ruining a great opportunity for our daughter, it will be great for her, and she will go!” Not only was my husband right (don’t let him know that he was right…) but I did not believe that God would protect her. I had no trust in God.
My worry and fears stemmed from when I went to Science Camp in 6th grade and it was a terrible experience. We had to take a boat to Catalina Island, about 26 miles from the Southern California Coast to camp. It poured rain the entire trip, the food was terrible, and I witnessed a classmate vomit about 10 times during that weekend. It was the worst, but I survived. I knew I could not let that experience be a factor for my child. I decided to be positive about the trip, prepare her in every way: clothing for every type of weather, giving her anti-motion sick meds, write her notes, and pray.
The day arrived for the trip. All the students attending were healthy and ready to go. The parents watched their kids board the bus. When the bus engine turned on, I felt like I could not breathe. Then, I noticed one of the teachers come off the bus and get into her own car. At that moment, I realized the teachers planned for every scenario, good and bad. Somehow, I relaxed and finally released the worry and trusted that everything would be fine.
The five days went by quickly and we were ready to have our children back home safe. We received pictures every day, from the teachers, which I believed helped me out a lot. The bus arrived and my daughter came off the bus. She came running over to me and gave me the biggest hug, I didn’t want to let go of her. I asked her if she was glad that she went camping and she said, “Yes! It was awesome and I will tell the 4th graders not to miss the chance to go!” Everything I was afraid of happening; motion sickness, homesickness, physical sickness or hurt, none of it came to pass.
Most of the time, the things we fear or worry about never happen. My focus is usually on the bad, not the good. This made me realize how much better things can be when you trust the Lord and look forward to the adventure that lies ahead.
Lesson Learned: Focus on the positive, trust the Lord, and know I am capable of adjusting to any scenario.
Prayer: “Dear Heavenly Father, forgive for not trusting you in all areas of my life. I ask for guidance and wisdom. Help me adjust when situations change and not to lose my composure. Thank you for your protection and provision. Restore my mind from negative thoughts. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”