Be Healed!

Sunday mornings can be the most difficult.  This time seems to make the emotions come out for each family member or physical attacks.  The enemy has been attacking me with Vertigo the last 5 Sunday mornings on the way to and inside the church.

I was walking up to the sanctuary, silently praying a covering of protection over me, when one of the pastors of my church saw my husband and I.  The pastor wished my husband a nice summer vacation and then outstretched his hand towards me and said, “be healed!”  I smiled and thanked him and said, “I receive it!” and walked away.

I wish I could report, I felt that Holy Spirit heat fall over me, but I didn’t. But, I did feel a change in my spirit realizing, I have been walking in defeat instead of victory.

My thoughts began to shift, and I went into worship believing for better days.  As I stood there, I saw the stage sway back and forth, and I had to sit down.  Then, a twinge of anxiety hit and I walked out of the sanctuary.

I sat outside, taking deep breaths while sipping water in between.  My heart ached as I began to slip back into those negative thoughts of poor health.  I looked down towards the ground, and I saw this reminder that was in the cement.

Even if I deal with this vertigo or other health issues, I still need to believe that God will heal. My body will be new in heaven, so I always have that promise to dwell on.  But if I remain hopeful and carry on in faith, the enemy cannot win, and the foothold broken.

If you are struggling with physical or mental health, I say, “be healed!” And I encourage you to dwell in the God, who is our Jehovah Rapha!

No Need to be Dismissive

“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6

 

As Christians, it is eluded that we should be modest and humble.  We need to be giving constant glory to God.  It truly is all about Him.  However, when God trusts us with a gift, we should be bold to use it and be confident, He blessed us.  Many times, we become dismissive of our gifts.

 

My daughter was invited to her friend’s birthday party.  I saw the birthday girl’s grandmother and went to say “hello”.  We were talking about Instagram and mentioned how I tried to “follow” her.  She didn’t recognize me by the Instagram Account name, Anointed Courage.  I confirmed it was me and she accepted my request.  Then she asked, “how did you come up with the name Anointed Courage?”  I could feel a sinking feeling deep inside my stomach.

 

There were feelings of embarrassment and flat-out fear.  I started to stumble in my explanation.   But I heard the Holy Spirit say, “do not be dismissive about your writing. Be bold and sell it!”  So, I told her how I started a blog and wanted it to be a source of encouragement. I explained how I came up with the name.  I knew the courage it would take to start writing publicly and how it would take more than my strength alone, it had to come from God.

 

She was so excited and told me that she loved the name and that I was brave to publicly write. In other times of explaining my blog to others, I made my blog seem like it was no big deal. Especially, because I was not a famous writer or have a huge following on social media.

 

One has to believe in what they do with all their heart, soul and mind, even if the world doesn’t accept it because God gave them a gift.   God will always finish what He has started, even if it takes longer than what we expect or want.

 

Later that day, I saw on Instagram this picture my friend @rolanddenzel posted.

My hope is no matter the doubt or criticism one receives for taking a risk, it is better to try than to not.

 

Lesson Learned:  Whatever the dream that God planted in your heart: pray, work and listen to Him.  And do not dismiss your talents.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me Lord for doubting you in using me.  I pray that our gifts be revealed and you show us how to further these talents.  May we always be humble in the success but be confident in these gifts.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Guarded by God

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.”  Psalm 91:11

 

Have you ever wondered why things happen the way they do?  There have been countless times, when things go badly, I grudgingly ask, “why?!”  God has good reason to allow things to happen.  One Sunday Morning, I was thankful for something going wrong.

 

Every Sunday, before church, I go grocery shopping at two stores.  One Sunday morning, I put cash, allotted from my budget, in my pocket.  Usually, it goes straight in to my wallet, but I thought my pocket was deep enough not to worry.  Also, I just had a car accident, where someone hit me from behind and I wasn’t feeling so great. (It turns out I sustained a concussion from the accident, so I definitely wasn’t well.)

 

At the first store, I did my grocery shopping.  When it was time to pay,  I reached into my pocket and my $100 bill was not there!  Reluctantly, I paid on a credit card.  However, I  decided to go home to look for that $100 bill instead of going to the second store.

 

By the grace of God, I found the $100 bill on the floor.  I put away the groceries and went back out to the second grocery store with that cash secured in my wallet.  I did my shopping and asked for help out, since I was starting to be in some pain.

 

One of the clerks at the store went out to the car with me.  As we exited the store, one of his co-workers was coming back from her meal break.  He said, “you will not believe what happened when you were out on break.  I will catch you up when i come back inside.”  Anyone would have their curiosity piqued by that comment, so  I asked him.

 

He told me something sad happened.  He began to tell me about an elderly customer that always comes into their store.  I interrupted him and said, “does he wear glasses and looks homeless?”  He said, “yes, but he isn’t homeless.  He just died in our parking lot about 30 minutes ago.”  He started to describe what happened.  Thankfully, he spared me most of the medical details.  I told him to take it easy because he witnessed something quite traumatic.  After he put the groceries away, he went back into the store.   I got into the car and began to cry.  

 

I was sad because he died so suddenly and traumatic.  But I heard the Lord say, “this is why I let you temporarily lose that $100 bill.” If I didn’t lose that money and went grocery shopping at this second store, I would have seen the whole thing unfold.   I am in NO way minimizing his death.  But the Lord knows us so well.  If I witnessed this man die, I would have been anxious for weeks, maybe months.

 

This event happened a week after September 11th.  I have read lots of stories where people who worked in the Twin Towers in New York, who were late or didn’t plan to work that day.  Whether it was because they hit traffic, their child got sick, or they had to go to the dentist because of a toothache, these things saved them from death or injury.  I know realize that even though things don’t go according to my  plan, God still has the best plan for me.

 

Lesson Learned: Nuisances can still be a blessing in disguise or a lesson that needs to be learned.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive for wanting life to be easy and perfect all the time.  Thank you for days when they go well and even when days do not.  May I see that your plan is always better than my plan.  I pray for a hedge of protection and your full armor everyday.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Didn’t Like What I Had Become

“There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is a way to death.”
Proverbs 14:12

Most people decide a moral code for themselves. As we grow up, in childhood through adolescence and into adulthood, this code forms. This moral code provides us with the ability to get through traumatic situations as well as making everyday decisions.

My parents taught me to be a rule follower. Whether I was in school or home, I was expected to abide by the rules. Of course, I was human and broke rules. I suffered the consequences and usually learned the first time (okay, maybe after the third time) rules are there for a reason.

I feared disappointing my parents, teachers or God, so I stayed out of trouble throughout high school and even into college. However the summer before my senior year of college, I began to question some things and loosen up on following the rules. And the reason being, I met a cute guy.

The summer before my senior year of college, I interned for a professional roller hockey team. This team and their staff were filled with really cute and athletic men. Since I love hockey and many of them played minor league ice hockey in the winter, I felt like I was in hockey heaven. Not before long I noticed their athletic trainer and equipment manager, named Mike, who was a couple of years older than me.  He began to notice me too.

Mike and I began to hang out at the rink and soon began dating each other.  He would tell me about his goals of going to medical school after he saved some money from work. His father was an assistant coach and he seemed to approve of me as well.  The family seemed great and he was driven and on his way to being successful. But there was just one thing…he was a drinker, a heavy drinker and I never drank.

To describe my drinking history would be non-existent. I didn’t try any alcohol until I was 21 years old (rule follower). And even the couple of times that I would order a drink, I would sip about 25% of the drink and be done. I never had a hangover either.

As Mike and I dated, I began to drink. I knew my tolerance level, so I still would manage to not get drunk. He would be wasted. I was the designated driver for us.  After games, we would meet a local bar. I noticed a staff member named Michelle, starting to flirt with Mike. They each already drank a 6 pack of beer and the night barely started. I was getting angry that she was aggressive and he was loving it. In my anger, the quarter of margarita I was drinking for over an hour, suddenly was gone. Mike noticed I finished with it, gave me a “high five” and diverted his attention back to me.

We decided to leave, but this time, neither one of us could or should drive. I knew that I never wanted to drink and drive because I knew the severity of drunk driving. However, I tried to drive anyway. I was driving about 5 miles per hour in a 35 miles per hour on the street but pulled over and said I can’t drive. Mike offered to drive and I told him neither one of us should drive. He got angry and said that maybe Michelle (the one flirting with him all night) should take him back to his hotel. I got mad, started the car and drove him to his hotel.

By the grace of God, I made it to the hotel. He wanted me to go up to his room and I did, even though I knew it was a mistake. Even as I made terrible choices that night, I prayed for a way to get me out of this situation. He opened the door and his father already was back from the bar.

Halleighluia!  This was my way out! Because I knew Mike would never try anything with his father there. I think Mike’s dad knew I was uncomfortable. He told me that Mike would pass out shortly and that I could stay on the couch (that was outside the bedroom) until I sobered up. I called my dad and told him that I felt to drunk to drive but I would leave as soon as I felt normal again. I drank water and rested. Sure enough Mike was passed out and I sobered up and left for home.

On the drive home, I did a lot of thinking about what became of myself. I didn’t like how I was behaving or the decisions I was making in the time I was dating Mike. It was time to stop dating him.  The next day,  I told him my decision and later that day, he was already hanging out with Michelle. Even though I knew it was the right decision, it still hurt.

I was 22 years old when this happened, I’m 40 years old now and haven’t drank any alcohol since that night.

Thank God, I didn’t get into an accident that night or was taken advantage of sexually.  So, I am glad that I realized I followed rules for a reason and my morality should be aligned with what God wanted for my life. In the next few years, I still made mistakes but I always found my way back to God.

God will always give us a way out of temptation if we look for it. To reap from sin is not a way to live.

Lesson Learned: If a choice seems knowingly bad, align it with what God would want for you and make the decision to stop.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for your mercy and forgiveness. Forgive me for making poor choices. I ask that I hear the Holy Spirit loud and clear to make the right decision. Remind me that all choices have consequences to help me not make poor ones. In those areas where there is lack, fill them with love, acceptance and grace. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

My Hope was Dimmed

“…as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”

2 Corinthians 4:18

The past couple of months, I have been feeling very drained. Our country , the world for that matter, are on edge. A lot of things that affected me and my family, felt like they were being assaulted or taken away. The unknown was strangling my thoughts.

On Sunday mornings, there are two things I hope to accomplish, going to church and the week’s grocery shopping. I try to go to the grocery store when they open.   There is a cashier named Christian, is always kind and social. One morning, I was especially tired. I felt like I could fall asleep standing up. He noticed.

As I passed through his line, he asked about me and my family. I told him truthfully on why I wasn’t feeling so great. He said he felt the same way. He said, “you hit the nail on the head, people feel terrible because there is no hope.” After I was done, I loaded the groceries and sat in my car. Tears filled my eyes because I know of a greater hope, a living hope in Jesus. Yet, I put my faith in a disturbed government and my financial status be my security. I looked at all the possibility of bad and current bad stuff rule my emotions.

Everyday is a fight to keep our hope alive in Jesus. Too much distracts us in our lives that tries to take its place. No matter the period of time, the state of the government, our current status in our lives…hope must remain alive in Jesus. I have seen people who have nothing and live in basic conditions seem much happier, than those who seem to have everything. One must allow God to reign in our lives and then we will remain hopeful.

Lesson Learned: May we allow the love and steadfast hope of the Living God reign in our lives.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that you are the same, yesterday, today and forever. Your hope is alive and for us. Forgive me for putting my hope into things that are of the world. Holy Spirit remind us to keep our thoughts on what is true, noble and pure. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Responding to Other People’s Anger

“If your enemy is hungry, then give him bread to eat and if your enemy is thirsty, give him water to drink, for you will heap burning coals on his head, and the Lord will reward you.”  Proverbs 25:21-22

 

There are days when you receive bad news, you process it and deal with it.  You realize it is may be difficult but God is on our side and there is nothing that is too big for Him.  Then there are the everyday problems that seem to cut us to the core.  They are trivial, but feel like a ton of bricks drop fell on us and we can’t get out.

 

A few things were going on that were causing me some stress.  I was given a work project that was requiring me to work more hours and my mother had been having some serious health issues.  Despite being tired and having some worrisome thoughts on these matters, I wasn’t having a difficult time.  I prayed and gave my cares to the Lord.  Then a small matter occurred with my neighbor and I lost my all sense of civility.

 

Southern California has been baptized with lots of rain (thankfully) but it wreaked havoc on our yard.   One morning,  when I had some free time, I decided to clean the front walkway and backyard.  I planned for this to take 30 minutes the most, but it ended up being 90 minutes of total work.

 

I was raking the leaves and after about 10 minutes, I realized that this task would take hours before I could clear it out.  So I decided to use our leaf blower.  Leaf blowers are annoying and loud but are helpful for bigger jobs.  It was 10:00 in the morning on a weekday, so I figured I was in the clear to use it.  After seeing some progress, I also decided to do some other gardening and bought 6 bags of mulch.  One bag weighed 30 pounds.  I loaded them into the cart and into the car and dragged each bag to the back yard.   My arms and back throbbed in pain.  

 

Several hours later I came home with my daughter from her school and had to begin my other job’s work.  My neighbor saw me come home.  Not more than a couple of minutes of us pulling into the garage,  I received this text message from our neighbor.  It was rude, accusatory and unsettling.  She was complaining about me using the leaf blower.  The gist of the text was she wanted me to tell my lazy husband (her words) that if she could pick up the leaves without using a leaf blower, he should be able to as well.  There are leaves all over her yard because of it and that she threw them all back over our fence (there was trash from her yard happen to appear with the leaves too).  So she insulted my husband who wasn’t even there.  She attacked my family.  I was shaking from the anger.

 

I wanted to text her back some salty words and give her a piece of my mind.  But every time I began to type the text, my hands shook so much, I would drop the phone.  I knew I needed to put the phone down, take a breath and calm down.  Thankfully I prayed and waited several hours before I responded to her text.  

 

All I kept hearing was “hands and feet of Jesus”.  Honestly, I didn’t want to be when I felt attacked.  But I knew, deep down, attacking her was not the way to go.  Her boyfriend has cancer and she seems troubled herself.  We have to drive past their place to leave our home every day.  In everyday life,  we don’t need to talk to them for anything, but I know I didn’t want there to be any issues between us.

 

So I reached for my phone and asked the Holy Spirit to write the words for me.  I responded by apologizing for the leaves going into her yard and how I never would intentionally blow them into their yard on purpose and I offered to clean them up. 

 

She responded back with an apology and how she is overwhelmed cleaning and taking care of her boyfriend having cancer.

 

So, if I went off on her, it wouldn’t have solved or proved anything.  It would have created animosity and enemies.  I am so thankful, that I chose God’s way instead of mine.   

 

Lesson Learned:  It is difficult, but more beneficial to be the bigger person, than getting sucked into a useless drama.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father,  help me to control the anger that wells up when drama comes up in our earthly lives.  Remind me of what truly matters, being the hands and feet of Jesus.  Give me courage to do the right thing that temporarily feeling good, by getting someone back.  Help me see that people are damaged and hurting and to offer encouragement.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

 

Meditating on What The Lord has Already Done

Blog Post #91 Meditating on What the Lord Has Already Done

“Let your roots grow down into Him. And let your lives be built on Him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught. And you will overflow with thankfulness.” Colossians 2:7

There are many times the Lord has carried me through tough situations and brought me to the other side of it. In the throws of life’s battles, it is difficult to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I forget all the good He has done in my life. It seems that I have a “what have you done for me lately” attitude towards God.

My friend shared with us, some of the troubles she and her family have been dealing with in the last year. I had no idea this was happening. It was horrible and she is so anxious and stressed that she can barely move some days or want to get out of bed. She is a lovely woman who give a lot of herself to others but she is suffering in this trial.

We all wanted to encourage and pray over her. One friend looked at me and said,
“I believe the Lord, wants you to say something.”

“Uhhhh, get back to me,” was my nervous reply.

I began to ask the Holy Spirit, to please give me a word for this dear friend of mine. Thankfully within a couple of minutes, I had a word from the Lord, for her.

I told her,
“The Lord wants you to remember all times He brought you through the difficult and traumatic events. He wants you to remember these things, to comfort you while you go through this trial and that He will take care of you and your family.”

In the midst of hard times, I forget He has already conquered the world. Instead, I try to do things on my strength, not letting God do it for me. It is a burden hard to bare.

Sometimes when people have asked me for encouragement and comfort, I end up hearing a word from the Lord for them, it applies to me as well.  How efficient is the Lord?

Lesson Learned: Remember all He has done, especially in the difficult times.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for all of the times you have carried me and brought me through to the other side. Help us remember all you have done. Protect us during these difficult times and give us wisdom. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

What is My Legacy?

“Praise the Lord!  Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who greatly delights in his commandments!  His offspring will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed.”  Psalms 112:1-2

Today, I was feeling sorry for myself (again).  I caught a cold over the weekend and my husband was away at a conference.  One of the appliances in the house overheated and every noise in the night woke me up and caused a sleepless night.  Wah…Wah…

I drove my daughter to school and walked her to class.  It was raining and cold and I felt like I was about to pass out.  A friend saw me and walked over towards me and I put my hand up and barked, “I’m sick and my husband has been out-of-town.”  She gave me a concerned look and said, “feel better!”.  I immediately felt guilt of not being able to force a smile.   She definitely didn’t see Jesus in me in that moment.

As I was driving home, I was listening to the radio.  There was a story of a 38-year-old woman who died of cancer.  She wrote her own obituary before she died.  In her obituary, she thanked the people in her life that she loved, she apologized to those who needed apologies and listed her joys and regrets.  The D.J. said that was an amazing legacy.

Legacy?  Isn’t that for Presidents, Warren Buffett or Bill Gates?   However, I realized we all have a legacy. But legacies can be good or bad, so what will mine be?  

My Legacy to be aligned with God’s will

For people to feel Jesus when they have an encounter with me

My writing to help people feel encouraged or at least not feel alone

 I want my husband and daughter to know how much I love them.  

So far…my legacy isn’t molding into what I want it to become.

When I came home from dropping off my daughter at school, I walked my dog and noticed my neighbors left their garage open.  I called her to ask if I had her permission to enter the garage to close it for her.  She said yes and said, “You truly are a God-send!  You always watch out for us and we appreciate you so much!”  I thanked her and continued on my walk.  I realized that simple action is apart of my legacy.  

My intent is not wanting to pat myself on the back for every little thing I do for someone.  You do want to make sure you are making a difference somehow.  During this election time, we see so many social injustices brought to light, like sexism, racism, and environmental disasters.  There is so much you want to stop or help, it is overwhelming.

This starfish story says it best…

poem-2-starfish

Lesson Learned:  Develop your legacy, even if it only affects a few or a lot of people.

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for this life you have given me.  Forgive me for relenting in first world problems and not seeing the greater picture.  Help me discover, who you want me to reach in life.  Show me what causes you want me to spend my time and energy on.  Forgive me, when I get frustrated if I do not see the progress or appreciation in my legacy.  This is all for your glory.  Help me to realize that I don’t need to be wealthy or worldly powerful to make a difference.  Whether the difference I make is small or large, I give you all the glory.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

 

Gird those Loins

“Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.”  Ephesians 6:11

The problems we encounter in life are relentless sometimes.  The Bible reminds us in 1 Peter 5:8 to “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.” I have had another round of upsetting problems that has been leading me to gird those loins and pray for the full armor of God on myself and my family.

It has been a tough week for my daughter and I.  My daughter went back to school.  She is young but is already dealing with a “frenemy”.  This child makes her feel bad one day and then the next day, they are buds.  The first week, my daughter was struggling with her and cried everyday the first week of school.  One day after school, my daughter three times try to engage with this frenemy and another friend.  She was told to leave or was flat-out ignored.  I was angry.  I really wanted to let loose on this child and her mother, but knew it would be ugly.   A few days later, my daughter catches a cold, then passes it to me.  Then our dog got badly hurt and  I thought I would need to put him down.  In dealing with the vet, I ended up missing the parent meeting for the sport my daughter was to start this Fall.  And lastly, I recommended a general contractor I used for my home for a project at work and it did not go well for the contractor or for my boss.  I felt caught in the middle because both sides were seething mad at each other. So as we dealt with high emotions and sickly bodies, I wanted to crawl in a hole and wait out the battle.

 The enemy looks to kill, steal and destroy our lives every day, especially if we know the Lord.  These things that happened to me aren’t as bad as what many encounter, but I felt like I was getting kicked in the stomach. Before all of these things were happening, I was praying for the full armor of God to be on myself and my family everyday.  At first, I felt like my prayers weren’t being answered.  However, even though my dog looked like he was on death’s door, I felt like he would make it.  I also knew, that my daughter was learning about life and difficult people.  I want to protect her, but if I handle everything for her, she can’t fend for herself without me.  But she can look to God and know that His hands are on every situation and He will never leave her lonely or abandoned.  We can rest in His might, not our own.  

Lesson Learner:  Be vigilant always and pray the full armor of God and a hedge of protection daily!

Prayer:  Dear Heavenly Father, I wholeheartedly pray Ephesians 6:10-18 over myself and my family. I pray that WE be, finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.  I place the full armor of God, so that WE can take OUR stand against the devil’s schemes.  For OUR struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, WE may be able to stand OUR ground, and after WE have done everything, to stand.  Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around OUR waists, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with OUR feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.  In addition to all this, WE take up the shield of faith, with which WE can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.  And WE will pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.”  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!

I am still not a “know it all”

Many plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21

As much as I am thankful for modern medicine, I like to explore alternative options. I do not like prescription pain medications. One over the counter pill is about all I can handle. I end up with bad side effects. My husband believes it is because I read the side effect information on the drug. Whatever the case may be, I would rather slather myself in stinky essential oils, soak in a detox bath or take some herb before taking a prescribed drug.

I haven’t even hit the age of 40 yet, but I feel like my body is already starting to fall apart. The last three weeks I have had a bad back and rib pain. I soaked daily in Epsom Salt baths, got a massage, had chiropractic care, put on the essential oils and applied ice and heat. But nothing relieved the pain or spasms. I thought I had kidney stones due to the intensity of the pain. I went to the doctor on a weekend asking for something to relieve the pain. They prescribed an anti-inflammatory and a muscle relaxer and gave me a pain shot that felt worst than a tetanus shot. The nurse laid me down on the table afterward because I was pale and shaking. I took the muscle relaxer that night. I opened my eyes and realized I slept through the night! But when I got out of bed, I fell back on the bed because I started having another spasm.

I went through this another week with pain whenever I slept or reached towards something. My husband asked if I took the anti-inflammatory. The guilt was all over my face. I think he was tired of the whining but he said just try it. I took the pill and went to sleep. I woke up pain-free. I had no pain through the rest of the day. I didn’t want to tell my husband he was right but when he saw me doing laundry and vacuuming, he knew I was better. I only took the pill one more night. While I still believe in alternative medicine, I know that doctors and medication still have a place in my life. Relief…

How many times does God bring you to a situation where the right way to go is not what you want or imagined it? Sometimes I believe I know the answers and don’t want to try something else. Other times, I see how another person’s situation worked out and I want the same results. I want for God to use me to advance His Kingdom, but I want to pick and chose where I put my time and effort. Let’s be real here. Sometimes you see people, who you know do bad things, yet God blesses them beyond measure. The answer is we do not need to know everything! The best part is we do not have to know everything. Trusting in the Lord is a continual process for me. I will continue to reflect and pray before jumping to conclusions!

Lesson Learned: I don’t need to know it all, just trust God has the best plan.

Prayer:

Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for not trusting you and complaining all of the time. Help me to have a thankful heart. Fix my eyes on you, Lord. Remind me during uncertain or in times of healing from physical or emotional pain that you are in control. In Jesus’ Name. AMEN!”