Accepting How God Created You to Be

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.”  Psalm 139:13

Every day, they are messages that bombard us that we are not enough.  Our bodies and faces, material possessions, or bank accounts need improvement.  We see advertisements for products that could improve every area of our lives. Instead, we have emptier wallets and growing dissatisfaction.

We are unhappy due to the comparison game.

In college, I took a walking exercise class.  I made two friends in the class. We would talk about college, boys, and our plans when we graduated.  Both young women were pretty. I was suffering from an eating disorder at the time and wished I could look like either one.  

They would always talk about their encounters with men.  I did not want my dating life to resemble either one of theirs, but I figured if I looked like either gal, I would have a date.  One of them was petite and blond named, Jenny. Everywhere we walked, strangers would stare at her or try to talk to her. She would giggle and flirt back.

One day at the end of class, another fitness class was finishing up.  Jenny said, “see that woman over there? I think she has the perfect body and I would do anything to look like her.”  I said, “are you kidding me; you’re just fine the way you are! You have guys coming to your beck and call.” She said, “well, I don’t like how I am. I prefer to look like her.”

When we deny God’s will for us, discontent grows in our lives.

Her statement caught me off guard.  How could she think that way about herself?  But here I was, doing the same thing. I didn’t like myself and wanted so desperately to change.  I would have given an organ to look like and weigh the same as Jenny. So many of us women believe, we are not enough and we need to lose a little here, enhance over here, dye our hair, erase some forehead wrinkles, or rejuvenate some other areas.  It is an endless, horrible path.

Last Sunday in church, my pastor said something that reminded me of our discontent with our lives.  He said, “You only have one race to run. A call upon your life that has been ordained by God.” When we believe in Jesus as our Lord and Savior, we must allow God to fulfill His will for us.  We are disappointed when we don’t have what someone else has, and we complain about how we want better. God knows what we need.

Accept God’s Will for Your Life.

When we accept that God is in control and has a will for our lives, we can finish that race, strong.  We don’t need to be discontent with ourselves. The changes we may have to make are our actions or behaviors, so it aligns with the will God had ordained for us.  We are all valuable and have a purpose and a plan for our lives. May we listen and accept that plan as God reveals it in our lives.

 

Lesson Learned: God made you.   Accept how God created you to be so that you can carry out His will in your lives.  

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the plan and purpose you have for my life.  Show me what that plan is so that I may carry it out. Help me finish the race well. Let me be your hands and feet.  Forgive me for comparing myself to others. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Patience is not for the Faint at Heart

“But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.”  Romans 8:25

 

One of the most difficult virtues to obtain is patience.  This world thrives on speed. We try to rush through tasks and work, just to get to the next thing on our to-do list.  It is difficult to sit and wait on things. But God doesn’t operate that way.

 

Many years ago, our family was fortunate enough to have Disneyland Season Passes.  Our daughter was about four years old. In a four year old’s mind, things need to be done right away or tears begin to happen.  Disneyland truly was ground zero for impatience. Long lines for rides and food, waiting to meet Disney characters and even to park my car became teachable moments for both my daughter and I.

 

My daughter and I were in line to meet the Disney Princesses.  This particular line usually was 2 hours long wait and for a four year old (and 35 year old) that was a bit too much.  But this day, it was “only” 30 minutes. We were standing in line and my daughter was very excited. She pointed at the little girl in front of me.  This little girl was glued to her mother’s smartphone.  I told my daughter, “I don’t have games on this phone, so we need to wait patiently and we will see the princesses very soon.”  

 

I specifically made a conscious choice to not have games or play videos/movies on my phone.  My reasons were I wanted my daughter to learn to be bored once in awhile, plus the screen was not good to look at for long periods of time.  It seemed like a smartphone was becoming another pacifier for toddlers, children and even many adults.

 

The mom noticed my daughter looking at her daughter.  She smiled and said, “I don’t know what I would do without my phone.  It keeps my daughter occupied, so she isn’t out of control.” (**) I smiled and said, “I want my child to learn to have patience while standing in line, so I’m that mean mommy that doesn’t let her look at my phone.”  Her smile quickly faded and she turned herself back around.

 

I wasn’t trying to sound more righteous than her.  But I realized, there are times we must learn to wait for things that we can have no control over.  This ranges from such things as waiting for a ride at Disneyland to waiting for the right spouse or job to come along and  going to school for a degree. I want my daughter to understand, not everything can be done quickly and good things do come to those who wait.  We survived that line (without the phone) and she met Princesses Ariel, Belle and Tiana. Ariel told her she had pretty mermaid hair. My daughter seemed so happy.

 

God knows that we hate to wait.  God makes us learn patience. In my opinion, patience is the most quickly answered of prayers.  We all need patience and we pray for it. Then we go about our day and seem to be behind the slowest driver or we are behind that person in the line at the grocery store that pulls out a checkbook.  The Israelites lacked patience when Moses them led them out of the Egypt. 40 years? Oye Vey… God forced them to deal with their impatience but their promise was fulfilled. Let God do that work in us.

 

Lesson Learned: May we remember to allow God to do His work and remain patient with hope.  And we don’t need YouTube videos or Instagram to make the waiting go by any faster.

 

(**I completely understand that some special needs children may need these devices to help them, but that child in line with us was not in anyway a special needs child.)

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive us for being impatient and blaming you Father for not answering us right away.  Sustain us during those times of waiting. Have us be calm and relax. Thank you that you are doing a mighty work in us when we are learning to be still.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Have it God’s Way

“The heart of man plan’s his way, but the Lord establishes their steps.”  Proverbs 16:9

“Have it your way” is a saying that advertisers made up for Burger King. The idea is to pick exactly what you want on your burger. Subway and Chipotle have made this the very idea of their food chain. Besides food choices at a restaurant, it seems we want tailor made lives.

This past fall, I was helping my sister-in-law and her friend run the pony rides at the local pumpkin patch. At the end of the ride, we gave out a lollipop to the children who rode the pony. Seems simple enough, but it was one of the craziest things I have seen.

One would have thought that I was handing out an iPhone. Every kid wanted a specific colored lollipop or their parents wanted one for the sibling that didn’t ride the pony. At first, I wanted to accommodate their wants, but when this became time-consuming, I began to just hand it out instead of letting them choose.

It got so bad that this mom began to argue with my sister-in-law because her kid wanted the green lollipop instead of the red one. Well, my sis had no time for that and said, “it’s a lollipop for goodness sakes!” and walked away from the mom.

The mom stood there dumbfounded. I was thinking “has this what society has come to?”

Yet,  I think of God more as a genie in a bottle than as The Almighty. I pray prayers hoping that situations always turn out in my favor or so that my family and I do not experience pain. I want my life tailor-made, comfortable and pain-free.

Allowing God’s will isn’t going to be pain-free. It will be challenging and sometimes, unexplainable. But following His will always turn out to be the best for us.

Lesson Learned: May I freely allow and accept my life to align with God’s will.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for asking for every want to be met. Thank you for supplying all of our needs. Show us your way and lead us on the path that you want our lives to be on. Align our hearts and minds to your will. Give us eyes to see and ears to hear your direction. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

 

It’s Not About Me

“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than ourselves.  Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests, but also to the interests of others.”  Philippians 2:3-4

 

Our relationship with Jesus is a personal one.  Jesus pursues us deeply.  He is always trying to meet us daily.  When we actually focus, we can see it and it fills all the emptiness in our lives.  However, when we hear from the Lord, it may not be a specific message for us, but for others.

 

There are times when I pursue God and hope to hear a specific word for my life.  I have been to conferences at different churches, where there are evangelists and pastors speaking and teaching.  There was one specific gathering where there was a pastor blessed with a prophetic and discerning gift.

 

In the past, I have been to two of  his gatherings.  At both of them, he called me up and spoke these amazing words over me.  So, in anticipation and expectation, I was hoping for it to happen again.

 

Before the sermon began, we had a time of worship.  One of my friends came over and stood next to me.  I felt the Lord gave me a vision for her.  I saw an old vase cracking and break a part.  Then, she came out of the vase, ever so beautiful (and she already is a beautiful woman).  The Holy Spirit continued to give me words of encouragement for her life.  I told her and hoped they would give her strength.

The service begun.  The pastor began to speak encouragement and prophesy over some of the people there at the service.  Lives were being changed as the Holy Spirit moved.  The service ended without him saying anything specific over me.  I was jealous, upset and angry.  Not something you hope to feel after witnessing the power of the Holy Spirit.

 

As the days continued, I felt more depressed.  I knew it was because I was still upset, there wasn’t a word for me.  There was a young woman, at this same meeting,  where the pastor spoke  over her life that matched exactly what I would have wanted to hear of my life.  But I knew I need to ask for forgiveness, because these depressed feelings were not of the Lord.

 

I began to pray and asked the Lord to forgive me and take any feelings of jealousy.  I heard the Lord say, “It doesn’t have to always be about you at these things.  There was a whole room of people who didn’t get a specific word from this pastor.  You were there for your friend, to give her that word of encouragement.”  

 

As much as you attend church or gatherings to hear specific words from the Lord, what you hear may be for someone else.  It means that God trusted to use you for advancing his Kingdom and to bring people comfort.  We shall never take that for granted but still remain in expectation for that good word.

 

Lesson Learned:  God is everywhere, we just need that heart of expectation and ears to hear it for whoever it may.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for being jealous of others when they receive blessings from you.  Refine my heart and mind to align with your heart and mind.  If there is a good word for someone, give us the courage to share it.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

When People Disappoint

“He heals the broken in heart and binds their wounds.” Psalms 147:3

My child has just started 4th grade.  She loves her teacher and seems to desire to do well in school.  Unfortunately, she is having trouble socially.  She has been coming home sad that she lost a friendship.  It is hard to watch.

As a parent, all I want to do is fix the problem for her.  I want to make the hurting she is feeling, to stop.  Yet, deep down I know, this something we all go through in our lives.  These situations build character.

I may be hurt by this more than she. It stirs up a lot of old wounds where I was rejected by friends growing up.  I have done everything within my parental power to try to fix this situation, but nothing has helped.  

Then I came across this photo on Facebook and it came at the right time.  This photo is a great lesson for letting go.

 

        

There are seasons in life, where we  just have to let people or things go.  This can be friendships, relationships with family, a spouse or a significant other, commitments at work or school.  My daughter may have to let this relationship go.  I have to let go of trying to control that I think I have and let my daughter experience life as it is, hurtful and messy.   So, the only option maybe to walk away when we have tried our best to save it.  As difficult as it maybe, life isn’t fair.

We learn we have to cleave to God, when people disappoint us.  Otherwise, our situations or circumstances will continue to drag us down.  We pray for healing of our wounds and restoration in our life.  God never wastes any pain we experience.  God has something or someone better for us in the future.  

America has been going through some tough times.  This country is divided politically on many issues.  Both sides are relentless in their pursuit of trying to prove each other wrong.  It has been bad for the last couple of years and even uglier in the past month.  People are disappointing one another in record levels.  

Recently, North America (as well as other places in the world) have been encountering many natural disasters: hurricanes, flooding, wildfires, and major earthquakes.  In the wake of these natural disasters, we have been seeing strangers being kind to one another and people helping out in anyway they can.  They are giving food, water and shelter to those in need.  Many are putting their lives in danger to rescue others.  The human spirit is alive again.  

Seeing this example of love gives me hope that love truly conquers all.  We can still love someone or something after you have let them go.   And letting go of that someone or something, shows you love yourself.  Let’s learn to love ourselves enough to not be hurt or disappointed, is one of the greatest gifts.

Lesson Learned:  When people disappoint, let go and let God.

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for putting my hope in people or circumstances.  Help me to forgive those who have treated me or my family bad.  Let anger, turn to love.  Show me compassion for myself to let go and move on.  Give me discernment when to let things go and when to fight for them.  Help me to remember the season of letting go is short and that you will bring forth a beautiful Spring.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Mid-Life Transition

“The glory of young men is their strength, but the splendor of old men is their gray hair.” Proverbs 20:29

It has been 6 months since I turned 40 years old. Some days, I can feel the pain of it, both physically and mentally. There is a growing level of disappointment about my life that feels suffocating and tiresome.  Honestly, it is a terrible way to live.

It was time for my yearly wedding ring inspection at the jeweler. They inspect and clean the ring back to its original luster. I love my ring, it isn’t too big or too small. It has a vintage look and I still receive compliments on it after 14+ years. Some of my husband’s family couldn’t believe he bought me that ring because it wasn’t on clearance somewhere. His sister saw the ring and said, “Hey, come look at what my cheap-skate brother bought his girlfriend! Welcome to the family!”

I gave the ring to the sales person and she went back to inspect and clean the ring.  She came back and said, “have you considered upgrading your ring?” I stood there with my mouth open in disbelief. She said, I deserved a bigger ring because we are nearing our 15 year anniversary. I told her, that I love my ring and it has true sentimental value, plus I wouldn’t want to have someone Kim Kardashian my finger to steal it. Now, she was in disbelief, as I thanked her and walked out of the store.

As ridiculous as that situation seemed, it planted a bad seed of discontent in my mind. While I didn’t want a new ring, I thought maybe my husband may want to upgrade and get a new wife. I felt this way because I know of two women that are separating from their husbands. One wanted to, because she felt she could do better while the other one was blind-sided by her husband’s decision to separate. Other people I know are discontent in careers they have been working hard in for 20+ years. They say, there just has to be something better but simpler.

One Sunday morning, I was driving my family to church. I felt this overwhelming sadness hit me. As the tears streamed down my face, I silently prayed, “Lord, what is going on with me?” The response I felt was, “I feel like I am having a mid-life crisis.” I giggled on the inside and thought, “am I going to buy a Ferrari next?” But I realized that I am feeling the same thing that many are feeling in their lives. The commonality of a lot of these struggling people are we are all in our 40’s, assessing our lives, wondering-what next?

Ironically, that same Sunday, our pastor began a series on the book of Daniel. He told a story about his own insecurities when he started off as a pastor. The pastor prayed about the insecurities and God told him, “just be you, be who I created you to be, no one else.” That sermon took a hold of my heart.

After the pity party at church, I gave my friend a call. She is able to listen and give a Godly assessment. I told her what I was experiencing, mentioning the mid-life crisis. She told me, “I don’t believe that this is a mid-life crisis, more like a mid-life transition.” My friend was right. God can create a change in our hearts to be who He intended us to be.

Living life in this world pulls us in many different directions. We believe we have to: make a certain amount of money, marry someone aesthetically pleasing, live in a nice zip code, own lots of things, give our children a life with endless activities. To attain these things, we believe we have to work overtime, supply our kids with material things, instead of attention. I admit, I was lured into thinking that I needed the $200 French face cream to combat the wrinkles that are forming. Yet, life can be much simpler. We can take a step back and communicate this to our loved ones. More than likely, they are feeling it too.

Lesson Learned: I won’t lament over the idea that life is over.  I will access them and ask God, what is it that you are trying to show me?

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for living my life in the world. Show me what you created me to be. Give me the confidence to pursue your will instead of mine. Thank you for supplying all of my needs. Create a grateful heart, not one of discontent. Convict me of those times, when I am envious of others. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

My Hope was Dimmed

“…as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”

2 Corinthians 4:18

The past couple of months, I have been feeling very drained. Our country , the world for that matter, are on edge. A lot of things that affected me and my family, felt like they were being assaulted or taken away. The unknown was strangling my thoughts.

On Sunday mornings, there are two things I hope to accomplish, going to church and the week’s grocery shopping. I try to go to the grocery store when they open.   There is a cashier named Christian, is always kind and social. One morning, I was especially tired. I felt like I could fall asleep standing up. He noticed.

As I passed through his line, he asked about me and my family. I told him truthfully on why I wasn’t feeling so great. He said he felt the same way. He said, “you hit the nail on the head, people feel terrible because there is no hope.” After I was done, I loaded the groceries and sat in my car. Tears filled my eyes because I know of a greater hope, a living hope in Jesus. Yet, I put my faith in a disturbed government and my financial status be my security. I looked at all the possibility of bad and current bad stuff rule my emotions.

Everyday is a fight to keep our hope alive in Jesus. Too much distracts us in our lives that tries to take its place. No matter the period of time, the state of the government, our current status in our lives…hope must remain alive in Jesus. I have seen people who have nothing and live in basic conditions seem much happier, than those who seem to have everything. One must allow God to reign in our lives and then we will remain hopeful.

Lesson Learned: May we allow the love and steadfast hope of the Living God reign in our lives.

Prayer:
“Dear Heavenly Father, thank you that you are the same, yesterday, today and forever. Your hope is alive and for us. Forgive me for putting my hope into things that are of the world. Holy Spirit remind us to keep our thoughts on what is true, noble and pure. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

Reset to Zero

“See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”  Isaiah 43:19

 

A fresh start…this should seem and feel wonderful but it is scary.  For newborn babies, we relish at this beautiful start to a new life.  As adults, we feel good with doses of shame and fear.  The thought of starting over is a huge deal, but necessary for one’s life to get better.

 

A friend of mine was talking about the sale of her husband’s condominium.  He had that before they were married.  They currently rent a place closer to the school our kids attend.  She was hoping they could buy instead of rent, with the money they make from the sale of the old condominium.  But before, my friend and her husband were married, someone took advantage of his business and he lost it when the economy went bad.  He has been paying for it ever since.

 

The condominium just sold and any equity from the property would be going to pay off the loans and all the realtor fees.  There is nothing left over for them to put towards a new home.  Obviously, they were both sad about the news.  I said, “I understand that disappointment, but you have reset to zero.  You have no debt any more and he has a great job with benefits now.  Things will turn around from here.”  She agreed.  She said, “as scary as it is to start over now, we are in better shape than lots of people with so much debt.  We will be smart about every decision.”  That is a relief.

 

Today is Easter Sunday.  This is a perfect time, for those who do not know the majesty of our Lord Jesus Christ to have a chance to reset their lives. How great it would be to experience the Risen King and start their lives all over again by knowing the Lord.  Even knowing the Lord for over 30 years, I have had to reset my life over.  The Lord wants us to be forgiven and have a relationship with him.

 

May you encounter God’s love, forgiveness and presence.
Lesson Learned:  The best day is when Jesus gave me the chance to reset and start my relationship with Him.

Imitating Jesus

 

“If we say we are His, we must follow the example of Christ.”  I John 2:6

 

This morning, I was listening to the radio and a singer was talking about the birth of his daughter.  He said prayed that he would not mess up that relationship.  He asked God to remind him to treasure his daughter everyday and to know it is an honor to be her father.  

 

Of course, I immediately felt convicted.  

 

I thought about the times when I get mad at her making a mess or dropping and breaking something expensive.  But then I heard the saying, “WWJD-What would Jesus Do?”  An oldie but a goodie… If Jesus saw my daughter, He would love and speak over her encouragement.  You can still discipline and show love.  I’ve just been showing anger and disappointment.  

 

At church my pastor also reminds of showing the love of Jesus.  When he wants us to greet others, he says, “If Jesus were here, He would give you a hug.”  I want to think like this all of the time.  But it is hard sometimes to do this.

 

Every time I want to write a post for this blog, the fear comes up.  I am disappointed and impatient in how very few people seem to read this blog.   Everyone is just too busy.  It could be that it is just junk and that is the sad truth.  Then something keeps encouraging me to keep going.  In the last two days, there were 2 articles and a video that I came across regarding dreams you wish to accomplish.  I think God is trying to tell me something- just keep doing it, but as He would.

 

When I want to write but I can’t think of anything, I will pray for the words that God would want people to read.  If I encounter a problem, pray to God how He would want me to handle that situation.  Life is complicated, but Jesus makes it more clear and simple.  We can do a lot on our own, but with God it is usually the right way.

 

Lesson Learned: Imitate Jesus not the world.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, forgive me for taking on the burden of every problem.  I need your wisdom and encouragement Lord.  Give me discernment for every issue at hand.  Show me how you want others to see you through me.  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”

It Doesn’t Have to be the Same

“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.  Behold, I am doing a new thing: now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?  I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”  Isaiah 43:18-19

 

About fifteen years ago, a dear friend of mine told me about her new church.  I went for a visit and it was the first time I felt like I was a part of a church family.  So many wonderful experiences happened at this church.  I met my future husband there and were married by the pastor.  I participated in many church outreach programs.  I made wonderful friends and felt so loved.  But change happens…

 

One Sunday morning, about seven years ago, our pastor made an announcement.  He stood there, hand in hand with his wife and said they had been given a position to lead a new church congregation in Boston, Massachusetts.  He went on to say more things, but honestly, I don’t remember anything.  I was in shock.  I actually got up and left the sanctuary and began to cry.

 

I realized, I can’t be selfish now.  I had to pour my heart out into prayer for their new calling and for the new pastor and staff that would enter into this church.  I still felt stung, but knew this is no time to bail as many would and did.  My husband and I decided when the new pastor was chosen to give the process 6 months before we decided to stay committed to the church or go somewhere else.

 

Over the next month, we had potential pastors come in a give a sermons every Sunday.  We had an interim pastor overseeing the process too, since our original pastor and family had to move across country.  One Sunday, there was a man who came and I knew this is who will be our new pastor.  He was charismatic and friendly.  Sure enough, the decision was made to make him the new pastor.  He had a church already, down in another city about 30 miles south, and his church would merge with our church.  This is where our little church’s world turned upside down.

 

Let’s just say, things did not go as well as we hoped for.  A lot of changes were made, as we knew there would, but it was done with an iron fist and not with love.  Instead of a church merger, it was a church take over.  We made it to month 5 of 6 of our goal when we both said, I think we need to leave.   As for the church we left, it end up changing pastors again. It was truly a confusing time.  Why Lord did this happen?

 

We decided to seek a church that our old church had a good relationship with.  I set foot in the church six years ago and knew from day 1, this was our new church home.  About 3 years after our move to the new church, this pastor made an announcement.  He said, I have been asked by a neighboring church if I could become their new pastor.  He agreed and said we would be merging with them in about 6 months.  I could feel my heart sink and a lump in my throat.  

 

I felt all of these emotions well up.  Here were my thoughts, “Not again….Are you kidding me, I have to look for a new church?…That was such a horrible time and so many people were devastated?…Why Lord?”  I began to pray to help me understand.  Then I heard the Lord say, “It doesn’t have to be the same.”  I felt this immediate peace.  I knew again, I would need to pray my heart out during this transition.  I knew that if anyone could lead this merger, it could be our pastor.  He said, we will consider this process as if we were looking for a spouse.  Take steps as courtship, engagement and marriage.  We won’t call it a merger.

 

I realized, yes people would get mad and leave, there would be staff changes.  But I prayed, as did the entire church, that the transition would be smooth.  Honestly, to my surprise, the church remains!  It has been two years since the marriage and the church is going strong.

 

There were still people hurt by the original church take over.  Some people stopped going to church altogether.  Some staff aren’t even in ministry anymore.  I saw a couple at church that went to the original church.  He was a part of the decision to go with the pastor that didn’t end up working out.  He said, he still felt guilt for the decision.  He was so heart-broken how many people were hurt by the change.  I told him, you can free yourself from that burden because if the takeover didn’t happen, I would never have come to this church and have an even deeper relationship with God.  I said God can restore any bad situation. And we have the wonderful memories of the last church and I am so thankful that I experienced them.   I gave him a hug and he looked like he felt a sense of relief.  Thank God, it doesn’t have to be the same!

 

Lesson Learned:  Change is scary but expect God to still do an amazing work.

 

Prayer:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I realize change is inevitable and scary!  I thank you that you are our safe harbor and guide.  Anytime, I encounter change, may your hand be upon the situation.  Holy Spirit remind me to call on you when I feel unsure.  Even if situations do not work out, may we see your glory!  In Jesus’ Name, AMEN!”